| sometimes I divide my thoughts up
like hopscotch on pavement
afraid of what lies
outside the lines
no one ever taught me how
to be happy
but I learned a hundred ways
to be unsatisfied
and lonely
I bury the evidence
under wet soil
that smells the way you used to taste
I kick my veins around in the rain
they weren't strong enough to stay inside me
but then again
neither am I
I send my best memories
on postcards hoping they will
find someone's warmth
and won't be bitten apart
on dirty carpet
like I was
I can close every part of me that hurts
but in dreams I hear the whisper of the desperation
it clenches my eyes shut
and warns my body to remember
everything that breathes
can be broken
every blood stain came with a price |
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| I want pillow fight in the daytime
I want to kiss you in between the floor and books
I want to smell your sweat and taste your flesh
I can't help it anymore
I don't know what to do
I have tried my best to list the reasons
Why I shouldn't be invested in this
Why I should take you for just another flawed piece of man
Another owner to resent
But the truth bites me sometimes
In the shadows
It reaches through my ribs
And clutches at my heartbeat
I don't want to admit
That you've become
More comfortable than my own name
And I can't seem to escape
The way my mind latches onto
Everything you say
I'd rather not place my shaking hands onto the hope
That writes your words
Onto the silent stars
That fill the night inside my soul |
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| My skin calls to you in the darkness
I try to comfort it but it won't stop saying your name
Tell me again
What you plan to do to me
I want to bathe my mind in the thought
Of you unleashed
Use me up
Until I can not move
Or stand
Or breathe
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| sometimes I tend to lose myself in dreams not realizing they don't breathe like I breathe I stroke them not knowing they are dead to the touch thanks are in order for that night you woke me to the stark truth I don't have wings you don't have wings the things shared between us do not fly they sink and become just another piece of concrete for strangers to spit and tread upon |
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| My body needs you in the sunlight
In the night time
In any second in between
You have a scent that cannot be forsaken
The mere mention of your name
Vibrates my limbs
My eyes only favor you
I see nothing else
A thousand faces could stand before me
I would step on them on my way to you
Nothing else feeds me
I lie between sheets
Numbly counting the days hours weeks
Until I can place my hands upon you
And you take me apart
One incredibly combustible moment after the other Dive into me I will envelop you like a loving fire Dangerous Wanton And debilitating
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